Louis Tomlinson describes deaths of his mother and sister as the 'darkest s***' he's ever going to have to deal with

Singer praises fans for helping him through the shock

Sarah Jones
Wednesday 25 September 2019 16:14 BST
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Louis Tomlinson has said grief has made him stronger after experiencing the “dark side” of life.

In 2016, the former One Direction star’s mother, Johannah Deakin, died aged 42 following a short battle with leukaemia.

Earlier this year, Tomlinson’s younger sister, Félicité Tomlinson, also passed away from an accidental overdose.

In an interview with The Guardian, the 27-year-old addressed the bereavements and explained that the grief has given him a different outlook on life.

"That whole dark side I’ve gone through, it sounds stupid to say, but it gives me strength everywhere else in my life, because that’s the darkest s**t that I’m going to have to deal with," Tomlinson said.

"So it makes everything else, not feel easier and not less important, but, in the grand scheme of things, you see things for what they are, I suppose."

The singer added that his fans played a huge part in helping him through the pain and shock of losing both his mother and his sister.

"We’ve been through some dark times together and those things I’ve been through, they carry a weight, emotionally, on the fans as well," Tomlinson explained.

"I felt their love and support. I remember really clearly when I lost my mum, that support was mad."

Despite the experiences he has gone through, Tomlinson says he always tries to “see the glass half-full no matter what” and that that he has "no time" to feel sorry for himself.

"I’ve been to rock bottom and I feel like, whatever my career’s going to throw in front of me, it’s going to be nothing as big or as emotionally heavy as that," the singer said.

"So, weirdly, I’ve turned something that’s really dark into something that empowers me, makes me stronger."

Tomlinson has remained quiet about his sister’s passing, however he has previously praised his three-year-old son, Freddie, for helping him through the loss of his mother.

Speaking on the Lorraine Show, Tomlinson said: "I have said a few times, it’s the responsibility side of things that have made the grief process a little bit easier for me.

"Every time I spend time with Freddie, you feel so much love and it doesn’t matter what’s going on, in that moment that’s all you are thinking about. Those times with him are priceless."

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