Louise Redknapp struggled with suicidal thoughts following split from ex-husband Jamie

Couple split in 2017 after 19 years of marriage

Singer and actor opened up about split in her new book (AFP via Getty Images)

Louise Redknapp has revealed that she had suicidal thoughts following her split from husband Jamie Redknapp.

The singer and former England footballer married in 1998 and were together for 19 years before divorcing in 2017.

Speaking to You magazine about her new book You’ve Got This: And Other Things I Wish I Had Known, Louise said that she struggled during the split to the point of contemplating suicide.

“I sank to my knees, crouched down by the radiator and sobbed and sobbed. That was the first time I ever wondered whether I would be better off not being here,” she wrote in the book.

“I would be standing in central London, watching the buses whizz past and I would wonder whether it would be easier for a bus to take me out. All it would take was for me to step out at the wrong moment and it would all be over.”

Jamie and Louise in 2014 (Getty Images)

Speaking to the publication, Louise explained that she’d seriously considered it “for a split second”, adding: “I was like, ‘I would really like this all to go away.’”

However, the Eternal musician said that she’d been stopped by thoughts of her sons, Charley, 16, and Beau, 12, who she co-parents with Jamie.

“I’ve got two little men I know need me more than anything,” she recalled. “I remember looking at Selfridges and the buses and being like, “God, I’ve got two people that need me, and they’re the loves of my life, so…” They’re the only thing that kept me going. Them and my mum.’”

If you or someone you know has been affected by the issues discussed in this article, you can contact Samaritans by calling 116 123, emailing jo@samaritans.org or visiting their website.