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Liam Payne says he struggled with ‘severe’ suicidal thoughts and addiction at height of One Direction fame
Singer described seeing photos of his “booze-and-pills face” in the press
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Liam Payne has opened up about struggling with “severe” suicidal thoughts and addiction while at the height of his fame with One Direction.
The British singer performed with The X Factor boyband from 2010 to 2015, when the group went their separate ways.
Appearing on The Diary of a CEO podcast, Payne told host Steven Bartlett that he’d suffered with mental health problems and addiction at the height of the band’s fame.
Asked if he’d ever had “moments of suicidal ideation”, the singer admitted: “Yeah. There is some stuff that I’ve definitely never spoken about to do with it. It was really, really, really severe. It was a problem.”
Payne admitted that he’d only decided to change things with his alcohol and drug addiction after seeing photos of himself in the press.
“’There were a few pictures of me on a boat and I was all bloated out and I call it my pills-and-booze face,” Payne said, describing how his face had looked “10 times bigger” than it currently did.
"In the band... the best way to secure us, because of how big we’d got, was just to lock us in our rooms. What’s in the room? A mini-bar. So at a certain point I thought, I’m just going to have a party-for-one and that seemed to carry on for many years of my life... It was wild but it was the only way you could get frustration out.”
Elsewhere in the interview, Payne revealed that he had split from fiancee Maya Henry.
The pair had been dating since 2019 and announced their engagement last August, with the singer admitting that he was “not very good at relationships”.
“I feel like, more than anything at this point, I’m more disappointed in myself [that] I keep on hurting people. That annoys me.”
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